"Time decides who you meet in your life,
your heart decides who you want in your life,
and your behavior decides who stays in your life."
The past few weeks have been a really nice time for me to reflect on the past six months and all the things that have happened. I ran into a friend a few weeks ago and he said something that made me think. He told me that the blog really needed to stop, it was too much emotion. At first, this really bothered me. But this really made me start thinking about choices. It's your choice to read this, so don't read it if you get fired up or do not like what I say. I really do not care.
There are so many people that I have met in my life. It's funny in hindsight who you thought would still be around and who you thought wouldn't be around. True friends are the ones who stick by you, you have fights with them, and you work through them. But it is your choice and their choice to make the effort.
I realized that when I got into relationships, I would often push aside my choices in life because it was easier to be a people pleaser. Rocking the boat and standing for something seemed so hard for me. I have finally come to the conclusion that my past relationship was needed so I could find myself. Losing myself in a relationship was something I could do so easily, not being a priority or something important was okay. Putting another person's needs and wants ahead of mine was something I did without a thought. My dreams began to fade away, and the other person's dreams and wants became mine. Do not get me wrong, I believe in compromise, but not giving up what you want. YOU HAVE TO BE A PRIORITY TO THE PERSON YOU LOVE, because it is not okay to be put on the back burner.
YOU HAVE CHOICES.
You have the choice to set expectations for who you will and will not spend your time with. People freak out about this word, "Expectations," but you are allowed to have these. It is not okay for people to treat you unfair, and it is your choice to whether or not you will allow this treatment. Personally, I am sick of being a doormat and letting people into my heart who do not desire me. Somewhere between my last heartbreak and the independence, I feel like I am more in control. Now, I can show myself that I am not someone's option, but I deserve more than that.