This sparked a thought in me, how many people are really "typical" ?
I didn't think much more about it, until I saw a friend this weekend. She has a ton of great things going for her. She is in a great relationship, has a pretty good job, and good friends. But her eyes were sad, when we started talking it was apparent that she was struggling with something. Of course, she couldn't pinpoint what it was and all she could think of she is depressed.
I saw myself in her and knew I was in her exact place very recently. Having an amazing boyfriend and life, but something deep inside of me was not letting me be happy. I had gained weight, not wanted to do anything, and just felt pathetic. For those of you who have never experienced this, it is terrible.
The worst part is that I already predicted the loss of my significant other, because of my inability to understand myself. I would wake up, crying, as if I was mourning the loss before it happened. It would never be my wish that my friend go through the same loss and hurt that I have gone through.
My own life at this moment is quite a mess, but a beautiful mess. I do not know what the future holds for love and a relationship. This is my greatest bother, because I do not want to lose my best friend and the harsh reality is, I might. My job is coming to an end, and new doors are opening. Doors that I never imagined would open.
Time alone is helping me to really figure me out. What I like, what I had lost in myself, and what I need to be okay.
All I could do is listen to her.
Why do we all have these inner struggles that can cause us so much pain?
At the end of the day, I do not think anyone could say that their life is perfect. We all have our struggles, some more than others. What is this typical person? This is what I keep asking myself, and perhaps, the great secret is, maybe there is no such thing?
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