What You Really Needed

Buckhorn Pass

What You Really Needed

It is weird to think, that often times we think we are losing the most important thing in our lives when we are really losing what we needed to become who we have always been?  I have loved someone with all my being, but I made the mistake, and did not love myself first. Having no idea who you are is a real deal breaker.

I never loved myself. Talking the time to love yourself and accept yourself is the best thing you can possibly do for you. Sure, it sounds like it would be common sense, but we live in a culture where we value ourselves on our appearance, the material items we own, and being "better" than the other person.  What kind of life is that? Why am I defined by my job, car, and where I live? This is not how I will choose to live my life.

My experience has made me, not money, not what I do for a living, not anything but the experience. I've spent to much of my life just existing, and not living. Sure I still struggle with what society wants me to be, but I am more happy now, than I have ever been.  Sure, I don't make that much money and I am single, but does that really mean I am alone? No, my life is more full than now, than it was a year ago.  Deciding to live and love myself is the best choice I have ever made. Defining myself to other people's standards is not how I live anymore.

Going to the bar on a Friday or Saturday just doesn't have the same appeal when I can truly live and go to the mountains. Nothing brings you back to reality and makes you realize how precious life is like a day spent in the mountains. It sets you free from when you start getting caught up in the little things of everyday life. Trust me, I still struggle and find myself letting other people's thoughts hurt. But I do know one day, I will be strong enough to ignore the toxic people.

With all this being said, what is the thing that you ever really need?

For me, the mountains, they always have a way of setting me straight and reminding me of what's important.


Until the next adventure.